I love to feel your gentle touch,
It’s warm against my skin.
And the way you leave my heart in disrepair,
time and time again. Read full shayari →

Though miles come between us,
And distance keeps us apart,
Nothing can ever change
The love inside my heart…. Read full shayari →

Today I have written after a long long while. Most of it posted here is that I have written years ago. And many more to come are also my old writings.

This poem is a combination of hope and happiness, prayer and gratefulness, fear and superstition and desire and fulfilment. The poetess (me) is talking of success she has had in her life. The success is the fruit of long term hard work, yet somehow she feels it had been a magic. She feels like she is still dreaming. The poetess’s heart is full of gratitude and thankfulness to the father above and to everyone who has supported her and helped her light the lamp of her dream. The poetess does not want to have the realization that her success is real as she has a rare superstition in her and she wants her feet to remain on ground. She knows this is just the beginning of the real life, beginning of a new story. There is a long way to go and there is a lot more to be achieved….

Read full shayari →

Well ! well!! Well !! The day we met. … I laugh about it today. That was the first day when I was all mushy and crushy in love and I wrote below all that I felt and its today three years and four months later I realize I’m in love with the same man. OMG!! How could I :p I’ve managed the journey so far and much has changed … and it will keep changing. For the better I pray. Hopefully I’ll be showing this page to my children soon … wish me good luck!! Go on and Read the Poem—> Read full shayari →

The moment I open your box
I see my life changed you know
Feels like there’s only me n you
Sharing our lives
Your toys
Your letters
All the creative stuff
They decorate my life
Makes me colorful
I’ll be plain without you
Missing you in front of me

I’ll make it
I’ll steal you away from you
I’ll make you mine
I promise
We’ll make it for sure
I’m determent
We will live a brand new life

Sorry! Watching you after a long time
I can’t stop crying
I love you
You are my desire
My dream
My destiny
I’ll bear anything for you
I’m ready
I’m prepared

My wishes
My ecstasy
My love
All I share with you
All is worth when you say
You love me too
Life is beautiful with you
Be careful my love

Let life be an open road
That we can run anywhere
We want to
Don’t be tied
Be free
To fly with no worries
Work hard
Get the best
God’s with us

“ # 4 NGS Says:
April 24th, 2008 at 12:38 pm e

I suppose the best way to sum up your effort would “HONEST”
Tosha as always a pleasurable read ”

On reading the above comment I had an instant thought. Honesty is all I have. The lines come to me and make a poem comes by it self. The lines together make the poem and thus my poetry is born. Honestly all that is here is me. I’m just, simple and plain, I am honest. Very instant reaction to the comment above was the poem right underneath. All I have to say once again … Honesty is all I have.

Honesty is all I have

I don’t have riches and gems

I don’t have a real estate

Truth to me all HE gave

I have no sorrow

I have no fear

Life to spend nothing to save

No anticipation to hold

No Dream to mould

Yet a dream I crave

World of joy and happiness

World free of stress

Read the poem I Don’t Know why to understand my words better.

The truth is these are not my words. Yes they have been put together by me but they have been said to me. The original thought isn’t mine. The feelings are not mine. I can feel the honesty and truth behind them. I can feel the joy and the pain. I know what it means to hear the words and I know the happiness it gives when you put it together as poetry. The honesty is in heart of the narrator, honestly did he speak. His fears are now over for the lovers are no more. I needed to share it for feelings are true.

I don’t know why but my feelings for you are all different
I don’t know why I miss you a lot
I don’t know why I’m addicted of you
I don’t know why I can’t stay a single day without talking to you
I don’t know why I always wait for you
I don’t know why I can’t stop myself when i want to call you
I don’t know why I go crazy when I can’t talk to you
I don’t know why I always feel you with me
I don’t know why I find my strength in you
I don’t know why I fear loosing you
I don’t know why I feel strange when i don’t talk to u, even a single day
I don’t know why I trust you a lot
I don’t know why I care for you a lot
I don’t know why I feel weak when I think about your absence
I don’t know why I have not felt this for anybody in this world
I don’t know why I dream about you
I don’t know why I always want you with me
I don’t know why I expect the same from u
I don’t know why I cant see you sad
I don’t know why I have been so affected by you
I don’t know why I’m changed after having you in my life
I don’t know why I have became much stronger than before
I don’t know why I m so positive about you
I don’t know why I m so happy for you
I don’t know why I don’t want to loose this happiness ever
I don’t know why you really mean to me
I don’t know why I feel its all real
I don’t know why you have really made the big difference
I don’t know why but you have changed my life
I don’t know why but its all positive
I don’t know why but I will not be able to be happy without you
I don’t know why but.. I will always love you.. I will always need you.. I will always wait for you ..Forever & Ever

*pic by me* This is a place close to my home in India (Sitapur)

Sun is a constant source of inspiration for me. I like watching sun go up and down the sky. I like to watch clouds play hide and seek with the sun. The deep blue skies hold the red and yellow sun so perfectly. Sun adds shine to everything it bestows its rays upon. The flowers bloom bright, the leaves look greener. Waters sparkle. Mirage shines on the desserts. So many beautiful and amazing aspects are associated with the sun. This is why sun is my inspiration.

This poem is also driven out of my inspiration from SUN… hope you find worthy of your praise.  

May the setting sun
setting to rise again
teach you the value of time
time that never stays
no regrets you always say
Sure regrets too wont stay
No matter what you do or say

May the setting sun
Setting to rise again
teach you that
There is no gain without pain
Moods are fluctuating emotions
Don’t make them an excuse
An excuse for mistake

Learn my friend
Learn to fight
Don’t run away and hide
Life is yours
Struggle and survive
Rewards you’ll get
Rewards to cherish all your life

May the setting sun
Setting to rise again
Teach you to rise and sprout
Like the seed that breaks barren land
Making it lush green one day

They broke up my ribs
And took my heart away
I was distressed, devastated
I know, I know nothing
Was I breathing, was I alive

I can hear it beat
It’s beating all over again
I hear the song I sing
I hear the singing
Am I breathing, am I alive

I was an absconded orphan
I have a shelter now to sleep
I cried tears that burnt my skin
My lips feel a smile, no more I weep
I am breathing all over again, I am alive

This one comes of all the pain and hardships in life. Sorrow and death look so alike. And the survivor is…who recovers all the loss. Hopes and dreams have to live. Only the one who lives…DREAMS.

There are many to sympathise
Who with me will empathise
I tuck my face into the pillow and cry
Scared to look up at the smiling sky
There seems no place to runaway and hide
Wishing you were by my side
with the mirror i tête-à-tête
who else is there with me
engraved on my heart is a testimony
terrible, terrific, terrified memory
I yell and shout, I starve for thee
Don’t spurn, I pray, Set Me Free…!

This poem speaks of the world today, where there are very few to lend you an ear. Very few to hold your hand and even fewer to care. A lot will nod at what you say and then throw up on you behind your back. The reality is scary and painful. To have someone to count on and give your world to seems like a fairytale. This painful truth today has become a testimony of many.

Its a try … jayda jama nahi … per koi nahi … try hai
दिस एप्रिल फूल’स डे ई फूवूयल्ड माइसेल्फ
इन दा फूलो से खिला फूल’स डे
ई फूल्ड अराउंड नियर दा लेक
और मस्त मौजी चीर्ड़ियों को देख
मैं फूले नही समा रही थी
खियल आया हाउ फूल आर दोज़
हू वन्स इन ए वाइल डॉन’त फूल अबाउट
फूल बनती है खूब ज़िंदगी
मैने भी खुद को कुछ फूल बनाया
फूल उठा मस्ती मे मन
ई हॅड ए लॉट ओफ़ फन
फूले से महकते फूल’स डे की
फूलतूस शुभकामनाए आप को
उमीद है आपने भी अपना
फूल’स दे मस्ती मैं मनाया

And suddenly I woke up
and found you there
angry! how dare
you walk into my world
stranger you were
stranger who cared
I pushed you away
I was scared
how could I let you in
in my complicated life
I yelled
I shouted and I cried
I warned
“there is no place inside”
you kept going on
digging the barrel land
with ya hands
you touched my soul
wherever it was dark
you lit a candle
and there was light
you warmed the house
made me ya behalf
you changed my life
every bit here and there
now its you everywhere
you made my house
our home
i know
you’ll never leave me alone!

Sweetheart it is your BIRTHDAY today
And it makes me feel special
To be the one you love
You mean so much to me
And I wish to say it all today
Your birthday has brought immense joy
To us, to our lives and to our commitment
For all this long we have been together
This is the very first special occasion
And I wish to celebrate it with all our might
Want to make you feel the chosen one
Above all sorrows and mishaps
That has been a part of your life and past
This dedication and love we share
Will today make you feel like in a fairyland
Experiencing the charms of life
You have never felt before
This day is very special for me
All because you are so special to me
Wish I were there to hold you in my arms
And wish you all the luck now and forever
To kiss you and make you believe
That dreams do come true
Angles do sing to intoxicate you with love
And shower Mighty Blessings on you
Since I’m not there I’m Praying
My devotion, my love, my wishes and my touch
And have asked the north- southern winds
To deliver them all to you
Have an extraordinary and fascinating BIRTHDAY
H.A.P.P.Y…..B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y…S.W.E.E.T.H.E.A.R.T…!!!

***on: July 03, 2005, 09:56:39 PM